Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past thirty days

I'm supposed to finish this 30-day blog challenge last March 15, 2011 and I can just easily antedate this blog entry. But what's the point? Other than the fact that I would like to end this 30-day blog challenge even a year after it's supposed to end, I simply would like to blog about yesterday and today.

This last entry says: a picture of myself and three good things that have happened in the past thirty days. Here's the last picture of myself which was taken last September 7, 2012 while I was in the plane from Cotabato to CDO, enroute Manila.

The three good things that have happened in the past thirty days:
1) Learning that I am pregnant
2) Learning that hubby and I are ready to have a baby, very ready actually
3) Learning to accept the fact that it isn't just meant to be, not this time.

Yesterday, (coincidentally 9/11) I lost the baby. Truly tragic, heartbreaking, but very humbling experience. I wish accepting it is just like opening the palm of my hand. I wish it's just something I can just throw or wash away. I wish I can just cry it all and totally forget about it. I wish this is just a bad dream.

But somethings are real. And this one is.

Is this thing good? Maybe not today, but it will be either a good learning experience or a good story to tell my future children, definitely, someday. I can't wait to tell them how I have longed for their existence.

So my 30-day blog challenge has come to an end, not exactly on when I should've ended it, but better late than never.

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More blogging soon!